it is always more difficult to end a new post to the blog than it is to begin it. the general arc of the narrative gets extremely tough to resolve. the urge for a well paced build up or a climactic denouement puts too much pressure on me and i find myself wondering where a particular piece is going. i find this aspect to writing to be very trying. also i hate reading what i write a week from when i have written it. it always seems under or over written, too silly or too pompous. i am embarrassed by who i was when i was writing the particular piece i am re-reading. how do professional writers manage? i cant even handle my little experiments here.